Doesn't Add Up

I thought you would be my solace

My soft place to land

A calm in the storm of my thoughts

My helping hand

It's times like these

When I can't see through the tears

I wonder how anyone could truly love me

The sum of all fears

Feelings of rejection

Abandonment and anxiety

I know it’s a lot to handle

Yet, you were the one who agreed

Maybe I’m just too much

Or is it that I’m not enough?

I’m trying to change my entire mindset

This paradigm shift is rough

They say lay your burdens down

Trust the process and don’t give up

But what do you do when 50/50 

Keeps coming up short?